Wednesday, March 30, 2011

obese.

seriously. I am so fat. I really have never felt this terrible in my entire life. I weigh so much. more than any 21 year old 5'4 woman should EVER weigh. I hate me. I am so sick about this right now. I just want to cry. I can not believe I'm this fat. I just don't know how it happened. Please. I need help.

Revised:

I'm feeling better. I know that I'm still big, but bitching about it on my blog is not going to get me anywhere. YOUR COMMENTS HOWEVER, have been great. Thanks so much guys. I really appreciate it. Over the weekend, Nick and I got everything that we need to take our lunches to work and school every day. That's going to help me a lot. Little by little I'll be changing things.

So far:
I'm already eating more fruit. I love both fruits and veggies so it's not hard for me to eat them but it hasn't been the season for anything I swear it, but that's changing so I'll eat more.

I'm going to start parking far away from school. Normally I can get a front or second row spot but why would I want to?? I don't do anything all day so the few extra steps are going to get me that much closer to my goal.

I'm not too bad with soda but I could do better HOWEVER, I don't think I can say "I'm quitting soda" because it makes me crave it more. Same goes for sweets.

I've started to put everything in snack size ziploc baggies in the portion sizes that are on the bag. That way I just grab one and not 7 servings at once. ;) The hard thing about that is that a serving size of my favorite chips is "9 chips" SERIOUSLY?! hahaha.. but I'll get used to it!

I CAN DO THIS!
watch and see.
I'll try to keep you updated.

5 comments:

Rob,Tris, Devlyn & Baby Khlo'e said...

I'm sorry you feel this way whit! This makes me so sad. Everyone is there own biggest critic...I think you are a beautiful person! And I saw that with 100 % honesty. Maybe, after the baby is born. I can get a pass to Gold's and be one of your workout buddy's and part of your support team. And we can help each other loose weight! Love you! :)

jenny said...

I'm sorry you're feeling down, Whitley. You're beautiful!

jayni & ben said...

Whitley... You will be fine. You just need to find something that works for you and stick to it. take it day by day. I love weight watchers because you still get freedom but you don't have to feel guilty. I am in your same boat. do not weigh yourself again. it does no good. go off the way you feel . start small even just by walking on your lunch break. it will feel so good. I believe you can do it!!!!!

little ms. sassy shelby said...

Miss Whitley I'm sorry you feel terrible. You are beautiful but nobody likes to feel bad in their own skin. I agree with what Jayni (even though I don't know her) said. Figure out what works for you. Start small and work it around your life. Good luck dear!

Sell...Party Of 4 said...

You are not alone.

I am there with you, I am working on it too!

I cut one thing out at a time, once I conquer that one thing...I pick another thing. I started exercising once a week, and now do a few times. Starting small first feels less overwhelming.

Email me if you need someone to talk to!