We've talked about it but i'm not sure that did any good.
I can't figure out if it's going to get worse before it gets better or what....
What the HELL am I supposed to do? We're practically married.. i'm not just going to give up because i can't figure out what's wrong with US. ps.. that's the "norm" for me.. i'm quick to give up. so it's hard for me to stick around and wait for the "worse" to then wait for the "better".
He's convinced it's me, because of my "after the baby" hormones still going crazy AND he "knows" that it's my self esteem too.. (which is true, i've never been this big in my whole life and it's REALLY getting to me.. my body hurts because I don't think i'm supposed to be this big, my little bones can't carry this much weight! I'm getting stretch marks in places that shouldn't have stretch marks and i just wish that i appreciated my high school body because, i was little then but in my own head?? i was still "sooo fat") It's ridiculous how girls think.. why are we NEVER good enough?
I love my Brynlee and i could never ever take her away from her daddy.. no way, i'm not ready to "give up" and she's my reason for that but am i going to stick around and be an grumpy bitch hating my life all the time just so she can be with her daddy?? She's 100% worth it but what is it doing to me??
i will never cheat because i know how that feels.. worst feeling in the world but.... i have all these new "crushes" and all these knew "thoughts" and i SHOULDN'T!
I'm 20 years old.. i should be in the middle of my life and loving it. I should be in the dating scene, or maybe in smack dab in the middle of my "honeymoon" stage.. but i'm not. we're way passed that and i can't go back. i can't get that feeling back. Do i try to find it somewhere else?? no way...
ughhhhh... i could go on and on about it but i don't know what good that will do either!
it's been about 3 years together and i think that our relationship has hit a RIDICULOUS plateau... i'm not sure what to do.
Has anyone been in this situation?? Can someone, anyone give me SOME sort of advice...
sorry i'm all over the place, my thoughts are a little scattered today..