woww!!

well! i go in for my TWENTY week ultrasound on monday!
crazy right??
i know that everyone reading this can think back to when
i was only barely pregnant! haha
now i'm almost half way done???
it's weird to think about.

i can't wait!! i get to see her again and it's the best!
i love to see her roll around and kick her legs!
even though i can't feel it as much
as i'd like to
i love to be able to see it on the screen!

this ultrasound is the BIG, important one.
they measure everything and make sure she's
doing well.
i'm anxious to make sure she's doing well
i want to make sure everything is going good
:]
this has been the most amazing, life changing
experience ever. i can't wait to see what
parenthood has in store for nick and I!
haha.. hopefully a GREAT baby!
i mean c'mon... i've already had a tough pregnancy!
can't i just have a good little baby!!??
pllllease!?
hahaha... we'll see.

the only thing i'm sad about is this is the
last ultrasound...
no more after this unless i want to pay
the person at the mall...
nahh probably not. they're too expensive
for myy blood!

i don't know.. maybe i'll get really anxious to see
her again. another one of those
"we'll see" situations.

thankful thursday...

i'm thankful for my car.
it gets me from point a to point b. haha

cute little white corolla S. i love you.

i don't feel good today or i'd probably write more.
blahh..

amazing!

so, nick and i went to one man band for breakfast on
saturday morning and i nicely ask nick "what do you want to drink hunny?"
he says "orange juice" so i get up and get him
some orange juice.
no big deal right??
WRONG!
hahaha.. so i bring the orange juice back and we're just sitting
waiting for our buzzer to BuZzZ
when i look over at nick's orange juice and what do i see???
that's right!
it's a heart in his orange juice!
awwww...
that's truuuue love right there!
hahaha..
needless to say, i got quite a few weird looks
standing up in the middle of the restaurant
taking a picture of a cup of juice.
but i don't mind
lol
i thought it was really cool and like c'mon, how often does that
really happen???

hmmm..

i think i'm showing..
haha, i thought i'd be more excited about it! lol i don't wanna get FATTER! geeeez. haha... all i know is that this morning i woke up and had a big belly. haha.. maybe i'm just bloated or something but i dunno... nick says "you're shooooowiiiiing"
haha.. HE'S excited.

i guess it's not soo bad. it's pretty cute. hahaha.. :] i always say i want a little belly.

i would put up a picture but my camera is being ridiculous. i know that the batteries are not old but it still tells me "replace batteries" and turns itself off!
gosh.

whoa!

i can feel my baby moving!!
it's weird and amazing and weird!
hahaha.. it's awesome!

thankful thursday...

today is THURSDAY..
haha, i'm thankful for thoughtful people.
this one seems a little bit weird but i'll explain why..

yesterday, i had a headache and it was awful!
i was talking to one of my friends about it and she truly seemed to care
that i wasn't feeling well. she even sounded a bit worried.
she was being thoughtful.

also, yesterday, nick came to pick me up from work and he comes a little
early every time and just sits to wait for me to be done working.
yesterday was a bit different.
he brought me flowers!

one PINK rose and two PINK carnations.
i said "whhhyy??" cuz i was shocked.
nick said "just because it's wednesday."
awww oh my gosh.
he was being thoughtful.

yesterday, before i left work, i took one last call
i wasn't too excited about it.. haha.
i wanted to get outta there!
BUT i did it anyway.
the guy that i was talking to really made my night though.
he said some really nice things like "you sound like you've got a good head on your shoulders"
"you really sound smart and you know what you're talking about"
just a few things that probably meant nothing
to him but they sure made me feel great!
i really appreciate it when someone doesn't think
i'm "reading a script"
i really was trying hard to address this guy's every concern.
it wasn't rehearsed at all. and it was a great call.
anyway.
he was being thoughtful.

i know these are just small insignificant acts
but they meant a lot to me.
i'm really thankful for thoughtful people.

i'm obsessed.

well.. it's true.
ever since we got the ultrasound at the doctor
i haven't stopped thinking about having a DAUGHTER
it really blows my mind.
haha..i can't even begin to think about how much
my life is going to change.
nick is really excited and so dang cute..
i'm really thankful to have him. he's being great.

while i was getting the ultrasound, they recorded it and
i have it on a DVD.
FYI i've watched it like 10 times. in four days.
it's amazing!
it's 11 minutes long and has no sound
but i've never been more entertained in my whole life.
i could watch it over and over.

i don't know how to explain this feeling
BUT it's crazy.
i've never been so scared and happy and excited
and anxious all at once. haha
i'm not really sure what i'm doing.
i don't know how to "take care" of a baby...
i'm really nervous. haha..
i've got awhile before i have to worry about changing diapers
but that doesn't make it any easier for me.

everyone says it's "motherly instinct"
"i'll just know"
but i dunno.. i'm a lotta bit worried about it.

WELL enough of this nonsense blog for the day.
just thinking out loud i guess...
:]